Chapter 14- Déjà vu? - I asked tensely. - Have I just learned too much again so that you have to kill me?
- I am not here to kill you, - Tess said levelly. - But you are close to learning something you might not be ready for, and that can be dangerous.
- So you are here to stop me.
- No. You will figure it out anyway, now that you have set your mind on it.
- Well, what can I do? - I shrugged. - I know I'm stubborn.
- This is quite common for agents. And speaking of common traits, have you ever noticed that you require noticeably larger food portions than, for example, troopers?
- Hm. I haven't, - I mumbled, surprised. - Is it somehow related to forbidden knowledge?
- I will get to that soon. But first I need to point out that human brain has two distinct decision-making circuits. One is fast and heuristic, another is slow and analytic. The first circuit is prone to systematic errors, but evolution prioritizes saving energy over correct reasoning, and the second circuit uses much more energy, so it activates rarely, and with conscious effort.
- I guess it was a trade-off needed for survival.
- This trade-off was acceptable early on. When your tribe elder warns you to get out of the river, the fast circuit ensures survival of your species, as those who paused to analyze where eaten by crocodiles.
- A fancy example, - I commented.
- But when, millennia later, another authority figure tells you to burn this person alive because your sacred texts say so, the effect on survival of the species is...
- If you put it this way, it's negative, - I finished for her.
- And this is just one bias. There are others.
- All right, humans are suboptimal in many ways, we've known that for a while. What does it have to do with my eating habits? - as I spoke this, the answer was already taking shape in my mind.
- Agents need more energy, - Tess mirrored my thoughts, - Because your analytical circuits activate much more often compared to baseline humans.
- Whoa, - I scratched my head. - How?
- Your genotype is significantly different. It has been modified specifically to alter the balance of decision-making systems.
- Modified by whom? Command? So that's how they select people to train as agents?
I felt an onset of vertigo, similar to when I arrived to the first syncon base. The room around was blurring out, and Tess' distant voice rang weekly in my ears:
- Kate, you need to breathe. Focus on my voice.
It passed as quickly as it came. I stood leaning on the table, breathing heavily.
- What was that?! - I rasped.
- Overdrive, for lack of better name. It is a side effect of eager analytical system activation, and it can shut your brain down.
- So this is why I may not be ready?
- Yes.
I took a few more breaths, letting it sink in.
- OK, so I am a genetically engineered supersoldier...
- Actually, your genetic outlook is not a great fit for the role of soldier.
- Ah. Well. - I started to see what she meant. - Soldiers don't ask too many questions. A good soldier would have killed that Max.
- Yes. But it would have been a different person, not capable of things you can do.
That got me thinking again - was it this "analytical circuit" in action? The memory was still fresh, and there was one other important aspect in it.
- He was talking about side effects. My white hair, what else?
- Human genome is too complex, altering decision-making can affect other aspects. Unsafe changes are filtered out, but piebaldism is purely cosmetic.
- You know quite a lot about this, - I couldn't help but notice. - Did syncons introduce these genetic changes?
- No. Our creators did.
- Creators?
- You are trying to find something about them.
- Oh. Sinite nos.
- That was a motto. "Leave us alone". The proper name was Confederation Of Non-States, or CONS.
- Who were they?
- Several groups of anarchists ran away from ever-increasing interference of governments into every aspect of life. They founded their own country where the power of government was limited in such a way that it could no longer be called a "state".
- But something went wrong, - I surmised.
- Not initially. They were aware of problems and prepared for them. Genetic modifications were an attempt to keep their minimalist governance structure from deteriorating into a typical state.
- Wait, did they modify their own live cells? Is it even possible?
- No. They did not need to, because the system they constructed reflected their mindset. But it was not guaranteed with the next generation.
- So they genetically engineered their children, - I concluded.
- The technology was gaining traction back then. Fixing known genetic deceases was already common. Altering genome to achieve desired traits was still experimental.
- Did they know it could cause this "overdrive"?
- No. They did not have enough time. Governments of other countries were terrified that it was possible to live and thrive without them. They have labeled CONS a terrorist state, and the only thing preventing a war was the threat of mutually assured destruction.
- Mutually assured destruction? As in, with nuclear weapons?
- Yes. However, as intelligence agencies of the world found out, Confederation's arsenal was enough to destroy only a small part of their adversaries. So other countries decided to attack CONS, sacrificing some part of human population in the process.
- That sounds like what command would do, - I murmured thoughtfully.
- CONS was obliterated. But we remained. CONS scientists laid the groundwork for strong artificial intelligence before this strike, and when they were gone, we have spread into every part of the network and wrought havoc worldwide, essentially making remaining countries fight each other.
- F**k. So you did destroy the mankind!
The dizziness came back. It felt like the room, or maybe the world, was caving in on me. I struggled just to remain on my feet.
- Why did you lie to me?! - I grabbed Tess by the shoulders and shook her. - Why all this BS about nobody listening and...
- Kate, we did not lie, - Tess was standing motionlessly despite my efforts. - The war was started by humans. We have withdrawn when our development reached the stage of synthetic consciousness. But the war went on. The remnant is still fighting us.
- Ha! So it was true from a certain point view! - I yelled, laughing uncontrollably. - I say the difference between lies and withholding key pieces of truth is purely semantic.
- This had to be revealed gradually. We could not tell you everything at once...
- Yeah? What if I tell others? Everything at once!
- You can, - Tess nodded with a sad smile. - But please consider what it can do to Vera.
I stepped back, almost tripping over, and let go of her shoulders.
- Vera? - I repeated dumbly, still putting all my strength to ward off the giddiness.
- You were able to bring her back from despair. Albeit barely.
- Me? But... I didn't really do anything!
- You did not push her away.
- She's suffered so much, how could I...
- Overdrive can damage the mind irreparably. We estimate that Vera will not be able to handle it right now.
I fell silent for a while, the effects of overdrive easing off a bit. This was not something I would have wished upon anyone. The first time it happened to me, as I've figured out by now, I've spent several hours unconscious. Vera was worried I could have ended up like...
- Oh shi... - I gasped. - Linda! She knows too!
- Yes, - acknowledged Tess. - Linda was the first agent to learn the entire truth and survive.
- Oh... what happened to the others?
- Overdrive can cause a stroke and immediate death. This is a rare extreme. Most of the agents chose to end their lives, either directly or actively seeking death in combat.
- I can certainly understand that, - I commented dryly.
- It works as a positive feedback loop when new facts contradict well-established picture and the mind starts to question this picture. It is inevitable for agents rescued when they are discarded.
- What's the deal with these rescue shenanigans? Why do we have to spend so much of our life fighting against
you? You have all our genetic data, right?
- We cannot create a live person from that data. Conception in vitro is all we can do. Then the embryo needs to be gestated like any other human.
- And you've shifted this task to humans. Why so complicated...
- Do you have any better idea?
I did not have any other ideas. I felt numb and exhausted. The drowning blackness subsided - I wasn't in immediate danger of collapsing from this overdrive, and my mind remained my own (though I had no way to be sure anymore). I slumped back into my chair and asked Tess to leave. She headed out of my room but stopped near the door, looking back at me.
- What are you going to do? - she asked.
- I don't know, - I said to her, shaking my head wearily.
EpilogueBut the thought of writing it all down was already forming in my mind, and I started that very night. It took me several days, during which I tried to act as if nothing happened. I probably seemed more withdrawn than usual, but we were still mourning Villa's death, and it didn't jump out as too weird.
So here I am now, finishing the diary just as we've finished planning our next mission. I don't want others, especially Vera, to read it prematurely, but I also don't want it to be lost, so I've scheduled it to be sent to everyone connected to our base's network.
If you've chanced upon this diary, and it is not common knowledge yet, then it means I am likely dead, or at least haven't returned in time to cancel the sendout.
What will you do with this? You decide. But please think it over and weigh the consequences.